I have always held pride in the fact that I never needed people or company to do something. I was perfectly happy to go shopping alone or to a movie theatre.
As the only child of a single mother, Nina’s natural state was solitude — Abbi Waxman
This quote spoke directly to me.
I always had a hard time expressing how hard it was for me to actually let people into my life. I’ve seen that people who’ve hurt before close themselves, but I had no such reason. I liked my space a little too much, I suppose.
As an introvert, I find any kind of social interaction a draining process. Even with family, I can’t live without having at least 30 minutes a day completely to myself. In one of the most turbulent times of my life, a group of friends unexpectedly popped up in my life. At this point, I had already expected the siren bells to ring off in my head.
I won’t say I instantly felt at home. It took a lot of time and effort but I think they are worth every single minute of the time I spent with them.
Now, I cannot imagine my life without them. I might not talk with them every day, update them about every single thing that happens in my life, or loudly express proclamations of affection. But if I have any trouble, I know they have my back. (And although I’m about as intimidating as a baby koala bear, I’d still fight for them)
